Hello, my name is Nancy ^^. Nice to meet you. Come by my ask box and say hi sometime. I won't bite...hard ;).
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Cassiopeia, Jaejoong <3, DBSK OT5, YunJae!!!!!
Music's important to me...I listen to all sorts, but particularly memorable in my lifetime: Hilary Duff, Jesse McCartney. Taylor Swift. Taeyang. Big Bang. Jaejoong. DBSK. JYJ.
I love the color Pink :). I am fond of Sky Blue. I am proud of Pearl Red--yes, it's found a way into my heart.
12.07.11 <3 J.N., please be happy. God loves you. I miss you. "I love you, I love you, I love you." In another life, I hope we meet again. I'd be better at showing you how I felt. I'd be a better person.
In 2 hours, it will be September. The month you were born. There are 3 days that I think about you in a year. Your birthday in September. The day you passed away in December before Christmas. On Memorial Day, when I go visit you. Well, that’s sort of a lie because actually I think about you every day. But I like to think those days are special…as well as the day we first began talking in June…
You know, they say when you have loved someone and lost someone, you miss that person for as long as you have loved them. I always felt that the time missing you was so much longer than the time loving you…however, perhaps time is taking its toll and doing its healing. By the end of next year, I will have missed you for as long as I have known you. I will have loved you while knowing you for 4 years, and I will have loved you after losing you for another additional 4 years. That’s a grand total of 8 years….but that’s still 4 years short of the years you promised we’d be by each other’s side. Yes, I’m petty and still am counting from a promise we made when we were 16…
I sometimes wonder if it sounds like I complain too much, from another person’s point of view. It probably makes people uncomfortable that I continue to talk about you…I don’t mean it as a complaint when I talk about you though…I just like to talk about you/to an invisible you. Like a trustworthy and reliable friend that I can share my deepest thoughts to, with no walls up, because I’m not afraid. I’m not sad or bitter anymore.
Overtime, I’m finally okay now. Not okay, as in okay because I want people to get off my back about how I should be over it already because sad things happen and people in our lives die but it’s time to move on already kind of okay. But okay, as in really okay.
I loved you. I loved you more. I missed you. I cried over you. I felt sad and abandoned and unworthy and bitter and angry at myself. I begged you to forgive me and not get mad at me if I moved on and left you behind in my memories, all the while clinging on to your image and fighting and waiting for you and pleading with you to please ask me not to let you go. I felt guilty. I walked through our memories again, by myself, and also found comfort in your loved ones. I cried some more. I missed you some more. I loved you some more…And somehow, crazily, through all that mess, I also learned to love me more too…
So, while I miss you as much and as long as I have known you and had the pleasure of having you as my best friend, I became okay. I started looking for my own light, to shine just as bright as you.
I just wanted to let you know this. I hope you are doing well too. If I could, I’d send you a friendly, encouraging hug today. Do well until we meet again, you and I!
When we were younger we were taught, “Love your neighbor as you love yourself.” The Golden Rule was, “Treat others the way you want to be treated.”
But as I grew older, somewhere along the way, I forgot how to love myself…So how can I love others if I don’t even love myself? This past weekend, I listened to some advice I really took to heart, “Don’t listen to others when they try to discourage you or tell you you can’t do it.” It’s likely that people are just projecting their own worries or insecurities on you. So ignore the harsh bullying, the mean comments when people make fun of you, or even the fact that not everyone will like you for being yourself and following what you want to pursue.
Do you. Like what you want to like. Dream what you want to dream. And mostly, love yourself.
We were taught, “Love your neighbor as you love yourself,” and “Treat others the way you want to be treated,” but I tell you now, “Don’t forget to love yourself as much as you love your neighbor” and “Treat yourself the way you treat others.” You are worthy, my dear. You are worth being loved, my love.
Starting from today, my tumblr semi-hiatus begins until September is over and I get the score I need on my test. I’m going to delete the app from my phone. I’m sorry if I lose friends/followers in that time…But I need to do this for myself! Please understand!
Thank you for all this time!
Thank you for following me and for the love I’ve gotten from you online friends.
I love you all!
Good luck to all your endeavors as well for this next month!~
I’m scared…I really am scared for what’s ahead of me after this summer…
I have so many dreams, and if I don’t make them, what am I supposed to do?
I don’t think I’ve ever felt like this before…My stress level is so high because I want to be perfect in my own way.
I want to get a perfect score on my LSAT. I want to lose at least 30 pounds. My goals are too high, and maybe that’s why I feel like this. But if I don’t meet my goals, what can I do?
I must do it.
They don’t know your goals.
They don’t have your passion.
They don’t share your dedication.
They don’t make your sacrifices.
They don’t suffer your consequences.
They don’t get your results.
They don’t have your strength or courage.
They don’t know what’s best for you.